Rituals, jamming, an awesome community and new friends (April 2023)

After the hike, I met Lowen again, and together we went to a full moon ritual at the Aphrodite’s Rock on Cyprus.

It was super fun and an interesting and profound experience. We meditated, jammed with drums and a whole lot of other instruments, had interesting conversations and a lot of fun. The atmosphere was amazing and very open and kind. It was just lovely.

The next day we met Timea and Roses, who had slept at the beach, at the still burning bonfire and together we decided to head to the other side of Cyprus to attend a community meeting of some alternative people who seemed to be a lot into ecology and open ways to organize their group. On the way after signing along to a lot of songs, we did a walk to a waterfall.

After that we spent one night at another beach and went to the meeting of the community. They call themselves “The Talking Circle” and this meeting was super exciting! They are quite a big group and meet frequently to learn from one another, organize and most importantly: having fun and growing and healing together.

The members were quite diverse and that made it even more interesting. The core of their organizational structure is a talking circle: everyone (who likes to) gathers in a circle a stick gets passed from one to the other and who has the stick may talk. Sounds a bit like “Waldorf Schule” (a famous alternative schooling concept from Germany whose name gets sometimes abused to describe when something seems to be alien and maybe so much good willing that nothing will ever result from it 😁) and too much in a certain way but I loved it a lot.

They are doing different meetings for different topics: they have an art, an sustainable agriculture and the main group. If you are interested, take a look at their website and contact them.

We had awesome days there and hanging around and living with this open and respectful community made me think if it would be nice for me to stay at a place like this. In a community like this. With lovely people like this.

I mean, what’s the deal about all this traveling anyway?

My first Sesshin (Zen meditation retreat) and the strongest pain (March 2023)

After the hike with Cindy I went straight to this wonderful spot I had found weeks ago when Serpentine and I were exploring Akamas.

My first Sesshin was about to start in the early evening. For a couple of months I had participated regularly in online meetings of Bright Way Zen. BWZ is an offline and online Zen Sangha (a group of Zen practitioners). If you are curious about it, just give it a try. You can just join the online meetings scheduled in their online calendar or join offline in their rooms in Portland, USA.

With BWZ I had done my first Zazenkai which is basically a one-day-Sesshin. And that had given me a taste of what to come.

In preparation for the Sesshin, I set up everything I would need so that I would not be faced with more decisions than necessary in that time and could just follow the schedule. The schedule was mainly eight hours of sitting and walking meditation with breaks for food, sleeping and some activity that can be done more easily in a “mindful way”. Things like cooking and cleaning.

The first day went along and I was sitting and following the schedule and had not too many expectations. But I enjoyed what I was “doing”. It felt like the setting of being in the Sesshin for a fixed amount of days lowered the potential for sensations like impatience, doubt etc. But of course it was a coming and going of everything there was.

On the third day my experience changed drastically when I felt the strongest pain of my life. My knees and back just hurt like crazy. I was immediately reminded of my Zazenkai when I had quite a similar experience. But this time the pain was all consuming. After a couple of hours of suffering I gave up on “trying to let go of the pain” and tried to change my sitting position while sitting Zazen. The pain changed but was just different and still all consuming. I was shivering in pain while sitting but during the walking meditations the pain dissolved. After that observation I became absolutely clear that the intensity and the suffering I was experiencing, were mostly a very convincing story my mind had come up with.

The next sitting meditation started, I sat down in my usual posture, felt pain but immediately it was not all consuming like before. And after a while even this sensation of pain dissolved. Just like that. Like the pain was a story I had believed in and now I had stopped.

This was the most profound experience I made during meditation until now. It helped me shift  my perspective on so many things.  And from that Sesshin on it feels like a companion to me.

And for some days I was really thinking if that kind of realization is what sitting is really all about.